I was told today via my mother that this blog is not private. My apologies. I thought it was. My Ex told my mother that a mutual friend told her that this existed. Funny thing is me and my Ex have no Mutual friends.
So I will fix it. I will make this set to private somehow .. As that anything I write can be construed as communication and there fore a violation of a restraining order.
This is fucking ridiculous. This was recommended to me thru my Shrink.
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I am not sure why I am such a whiny lil bitch. I normally run thru my life with no filter and it should not matter if people know intimate details about my life. But I guess if the truth about me hurts and makes me a bad parent ... than so be it.
I don't think I am going to delete this. I have been working on it for some time. I think when my children are able to search the internet I will delete it. I did learn some good things in the parenting class the other night. maybe not a 100$ worth of stuff but it was good.
My kids dont deserve to know what casued me and my exes break up. All they should know is that there are two people who are know longer friends who have one thing in common and that is to raise two outstanding men.
As far as the rest of the crap in my life .. it is not at all important.
This is not communication to anyone. This is a effort for me to post things in private to sort out my thoughts so that I never have to utter them. When I was posting on Facebook they were harmful and hurtful. As long as they where private here they harmed no one.
Now that I guess they are public we will see if this causes me to go to court again or even jail. I really don't mind either way. Its not like I am doing anything this month.
