Assumptions Expectations and Predictions.

So I don't know what the difference.  You know what they say about Assumptions?  Every time you use that word someone is going to quote the dumbest quote in the world.

When my marriage was ending I assumed my wife was sleeping around.

I expected her to try to get all our friends and acquaintances to all side with her and her side of the story.

But what I didn't predict is what my Friend Robert did.

When I met this young girl she was full of energy.  She was beautiful and amazing and she flirted with all the boys and wanted them to tell her those things.  When she went down on me on our first date .. I didn't expect it from her; but after it I Assumed she would be unfaithful in our relationship.  I predicted she would grow and it would change.

Now Robert and me were not in actuality that close it seems.  While we shared a lot of time in the gym i think I over estimated the strength of our friendship.  I did not know he was fired for sleeping with another teacher while being married.  I didn't know his views on how as soon as you break up with a female she is fair game.  I didn't predict it.

When he would come over before I come home and when I get there and see him with his shirt off laying on the couch talking to the girls I thought he was still a respectful person.  When he would meet my wife for dinner to discuss business and marketing .. I never expected him to be laying the foot work for a future relationship.

But why am I so hurt by these things?

I understand its is bad .. that I have worked so long for a black belt and then not to get it.  I understand it is so hard being away from my kids and I miss them to death.  I understand that I miss the "family" and the dinners, and the time spent being a family and the Sundays at Barbs.

While I got use to living with the little girl who cried wolf; I never expected this.  I simply can't understand why I keep feeling like this.  I don't know why I am so emotional over something that simply not that big of a deal.  I need to get better ... I need to move on.