If you could have one wish ...

An Angel approached me last night.  Well not last night; because I am working 12 hour PM shifts but my sleep and eat schedule are all messed up.  SO lets just say an Angel approached me last sleep cycle.

and well .. before we go there. Lets talk about the Volvo S60.  A decent little car that is dependable.  Has a lot of bells and whistles.  And one strange thing I always thought is that because it is a short car there is a switch near the driving column that releases the head rests in the back seats and has them propel forward to open up the space of the window behind it.  When I was married when I would drive my Exes car and the kids were in back I would always say " hey is that a deer?" (or something to look at) and when they would turn to look at it ... I would flip the switch and the head rest would clonk them on the head.  Slightly amusing I know .. but I enjoyed those memories.

SO last sleep cycle I had a dream that I was awoke in a place not my home where I did not recognize ... and there was a Djinni floating above me explaining that I could have any one wish that would make  my life better. .. I told the Djinni that I want for the next time my Ex is driving with the kids ... she tell the kids .. :"Hey look theres an Eagle .. " and when they look she drops the headrests onto the kids .. and she says .. that's from your daddy .. he loves you very much.

I woke shortly after this scene.  Don't remember much of it.  But it makes me wonder why out of all things I could wish for .. I choose that.  I could wish for lack of depression.  I could wish for wealth.  I could even wish to be married and none of this craziness having ever had happened.

Now that I am awake and its several hours later .. i don;'t know if I will share this dream.  Not that I have a lot of people I talk with .. but I have acquaintances at work I sometimes confide too much in.

I am not sure why .. this was my wish .. but the fact that it was should give me something to think about for the next few weeks.

I pray my kids are alright.  I miss them so very much.