Barb

Over the last 11 years of marriage with my X Wife ... I have become very close to a specific woman.  her name is Barb.  She is the mother of my X Wife.  I love this person and respect her severely.  I believe her children are great people due specifically to how she has raised them and taught them as a parent. 

I would dream that I would parent as well.

Today she asked me to stop posting mean things on facebook.

I guess that people can see it there.  Well no one can see this here ... and by the time anyone finds this I may be gone.

What she was asking for me to stop hurting her daughter and my friend Robert.

What in reality she was doing was asking me to shut down communication.  Because in reality .. Everyone I know has been in conjunction with my X.  My friends at the gym, my friends at the church, the people I hang out with ...  all were taken by my X Wife in the divorce.

So what am I suppose to do.  I have one person I can talk with and she hates the fact that I am sad. .. and she is upset I want it to end.

So; because I can not control myself.  I have closed my Facebook accounts. my apt has been quiet today.  I will not leave it for another 2 days.  I only leave to go to work and to buy new scented candles.

But because Barb requests it  .. I am going to do my best to not communicate with the outside world.


I am sorry I am filled with hate and pain but I blame your daughter for causing this.