DEC court ... and the truth.

Today I had court.  It was uneventful.  It seems like every time I go to court I do not even speak.  So today I went to court for a review of my inability to remain in compliance with my domestic violence requirements.

The truth however is that I am in compliance.  But that is not in important in the court.  I need the document from the therapist.  Unfortunately for me he did not get it done last Wednesday.  Then he had Thursday and Friday off.  Now it is my problem because now this Monday I still am not in compliance.

I discussed these issues with my therapist and he now thinks he should wait to finish the paper work till a eval I did last week gets done by the CD people.

All in all I am pretty sick of this system.  I am out of compliance if I read a self help book.  I am out of compliance if I go with my GF to Victoria's Secrets for some skin lotion.

and my fellow criminals in DV class have told me time and time again that all my problems would go away if I would just lie.


1) I should have lied to the police.  I would never have been arrested.
2) I should have lied to my therapists.   And my treatment would be going better.
3) I should have lied to the judge and prosecutor. 


Now the problem is either I am to stupid to lie or I just don't want to be like those people.  I really thought my mom taught me to behave better than this.  If I do lie all my problems go away .. but than I am just like everyone else.

so my miserable journey continues.

I miss my kids. Daily.