Why

I got a new phone.  I am not sure why I added this app but it seems to be the only way to express my feelings.

I don't speak honestly to my GF. I am looking for a wallpaper for my phone and as I go thru the pics of my boys that pain hits me hard.

I took a PHA with the Army this month and checked all the boxes that I needed help and was miserable and sad.

I have met with both my therapists this week and not one of them could tell how depressed I am.

I think and wish for death everyday but I don't get to take my own life because if I do my kids will never get to see their Nana again.

So I guess I continue to write and rewrite my goodbye letters to the people in my life who matters but never do anything about it.

But so I got this app for my phone.  I hope I write something of worth one day.