pain

I just had a meeting with a therapist.  I thought it was suppose to be a good meeting where I was going to be recommended to remove my anklet because of passing my polygraph.  However they focused on a few things.  In the past four months I looked at Porn a few times, about a month ago my GF gave me a taste of her margarita, and I continue to use the internet.

How the fuck can they outlaw someone from using the fucking internet? really?

I fear that absolutely understands me and that I am fucking nuts.  I simply want to live my little going no where life and pay my child support and be left the fuck alone.  How keeping me from the internet is suppose to help me?  I haven't a fucking clue.

I have no friends; apart from the internet.  I go no where.  After work every night I stay at home and watch TV on the internet or read.  Most my video games are internet related.

They tell me I need to give up all controlling behaviors .. but wanting to have the rights to privacy, and to live my life as  I see fit is not controlling.

I would hope a therapist would try to deliver you from depression not throw you deeper into it.